happy birthday.

I have no idea why am I taking the risk to blog about this.
Maybe cause it had been a long time so I doubt you would ever read it?
It was meant to a speechless post at first and I may have written what i'm suppose to write on my text to you but sometimes a little more aint that harm.
Furthermore, it might be the last time, or one of the last that we're ever gonna talk so frequently again.

But anyway, thanks for those old times and memories.
It's been tough sometimes and then it gets so unpredictable.
And I knew all along that it's gonna be like a roller coaster full of ups and downs and that it'll eventually stop one day.
And many had said I'm clinging on to nothing.
Because I have to face reality someday and am doing it now.
And I have no right to stop whatever you're doing or what you're thinking.

Nothing in this world, is as it seems.
What I wanted at first, had me left with many questions.
What I didnt expect now, leave me with no regrets.

Thanks for those text-es last year.
Thanks for those calls.
And the day-out.
Though it might be the last time I'm reminiscing.

"Each day should be passed as though it were our last."
Goodbye.

Oh, it tears me up I tried to hold on but it hurts too much I tried to forgive but it's not enough To make it all okay



I'm so disappointed with myself for disrupting my beauty sleep due to the several miss calls, messages and disruptions.
HAHAHA WHATVERRRRRRRR.

It's so sucky that 2010 has just begun and tons of hmk are alr left not completed.
And I lost my prefect tie ):
I'm gonna screw whichever bastard who took it away. =O

On the bright bright awesome side of life, diana's super sweet sixteen happened on the 26th Jan (:


Tonight's the night I've waited for
Because you're not a baby anymore
You've turned into the prettiest girl
I've ever seen
Happy birthday sweet sixteen.


Bet you were touched by my messages!
Though I havent gave you any present yet,
(sucks right, I'm always not on time)
hope you had a great day that day!


Though some of you guys werent exactly satisfied with your selection of schools,
it might actually be for the better as you guys never know what's gonna come.
All the best (:

I regretted something today.
Stupid itchy hands, cause everyone can reads it, everyone could know it.
And yet I promised never, and yet I did.

Dont just read, dont ask.
Dont interpret, just look.
Dont go back, dont turn back.







Hello, you're awesome.

21st Jan 2009,


Happy Birthday GOHYS (:
Though it wasnt really the most perfect day on that day, hope you had a great time.
Despite telling you this for a thousand and one time, stop emo-ing mann.
Cause you're great and a good friend to come, no one is perfect right?
And you've done all the best you can already, so three cheers for you.
Thanks for being there especially on some particular days, where you-know-what and who it is.
Haha it's over now right?
You soo rock, coldrock/hardrock.

At least I blogged something practical today.
I'm tired.

I wonder, do you still read my blog?
or you just dont give a shit anymore? like how you always did?







Yay I'm finally blogging again.
School's been so stress nowadays.
I mean, its only the first few weeks of school and it sucks cause there's a test almost everyday.
And then the counsellor came to our class today to talk about life theory and she disgusted me alot.
But then again, I feel motivated knowing that I'm taller than her =D

AND I'M SO DEPRESSED CAUSE I DIDNT GROW ANY TALLER.
(you should see my sad face after pe)
I was soo looking foward to the height and weight thingy, taking a step further of an air stewardess but damn, screw those machines!
So you know what, I changed my mind! No more of that ambition.
( I'm still gonna wear that five inch heels) HAHA

Anyway, another that's even depressing is that there's lessons every sat.
wthhhhh and sat is apparently the day where most ppl would be having tuitions.
Omgggg which is soo not good at all cause sunday would be my doomz day (tuition) and since most cant come out on saturday, there's a very low chance of me going out on weekends. =O
Get that? :/

Ahhh I love farhanna btw (: RANDOMMMM
Tmr's some emo person's birthday. HAHAHA



Today was one of the biggest joke ever, (yet 'surprising').
Not the fact that it was Habibah's birthday but the way we planned to make it as a surprise failed in a good way.

Firstly, she already caught diana holding the cake
while rushing our way back to class.
So we kept denying that she've seen nothing but our act of covering it failed.
Since she alr knew what was going to happen, we forced her to PRETEND to be shocked when we suprised her.
I swear the cake was awesome! Though she had cream all over her face.
And she totally cried when Mingduo gave her that dress!
HAHAHA

Oh and yes, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN HABIBAAAAH!
Really hope you enjoyed our mini celebration for you today. Seriously, without you in our class, there wont be as anyone as crazy to shout/scream/"cry"/wail/whine or whatever dramatic things that you're capable of doing. In short, you're an awesome friend! =D


I love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you!

16 "i love you's" to you since you're already a legal virgin =P



I'm gonna change the way I look at things now.

Like how strawberries could be rather sweet instead of being sour.
How coins could unlock some doors just by turning it around.
How you could look at a person and change the whole perspective of it by seeing through a different point of view.

How you could feel the remorse around some of your friends and yet feels the same way too but not admitting the lost battle, you continue fighting on and it somehow succeeded in your heart.
Though it might not be easy.
But it's aint that hard too.

Sometimes I love my class like really alot cause everyone seems so happy and hyper and so free of worries and such.
Though I thought singing helps to add into the
already hyped up atmosphere of it. :p
And yet it could be so great cause you wont think of any stuff that's bothering/gonna bother you and bam, big wide smile on my face! =D

No matter how we try to be mature, we will always be a kid when we all get hurt and cry
-Peter Pan

HAHA Peter Pan!
DO EPIC SHITXZXZ!



First of all,

Happy sweet sixteen Jean(:

It was her birthday and we had her to stand on the stage during recess while we sang the bday song non-stop.
I think it kinda repeated for alot of times. haha

After school was nerve wrecking cause it was the O's results.
Not that it's my turn yet but it's fascinating to see how people react when they got back their results.
Most of the pure-science students didnt get an A so the teacher suggested us to drop it.
Which I think majority of our class will cause they're already considering it.

Didnt catch anyone crying though but it was kinda sad for those who didnt do as well as they have expected.
Oh well, you guys did your best (:

After-school time,




It's been quite a long while since I saw all of them
It might be the last time, but then again maybe not. (:



People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn’t. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart, is the hardest thing.

I cant believe it. I dont believe it. I'm so shocked. I went speechless not long after.
OMGGGAAA I didnt expect it. At least not now.
As least not so fast.
And yet my impression changed now.
I finally understood why people get disappointed.
Cause now I felt that way too.
And like what she said, once you start, you cant stop.
Really?

From next week onwards, I'm gonna be very very strong.
This has nothing to do with what I said previously.
Not literally strong. But you know what I'm talking about.
This year, I'm gonna forgive but not forget.
I'm not gonna stay on, I'm gonna move on.
Just because people calls me a bimbo, does'nt mean I'm dumb.
Just because I'm naive and gullible, does'nt mean I aint smart.
I'm not talking crap btw. I mean it.

Tuition is starting soon.
Need to face reality, since torture is coming.
You can do it!!





Open house was yesterday.
Surprisingly, quite alot of new sec 1s has signed up for drama, which is a good thing =D
Changhui and I was advertsing it by walking around with that big banner.
Omgg retarded, and Mr Y had us to put a smile on our face.

Had a trip to Ngee Ann Poly open house to take a look and mann, it was kinda fun.
Not those courses and all but the popcorns and getting those shirts if we shouted something nice about NP.
And bread shouted the loudest, "NP boomz!"
Not long after, we found out that Ris Low was there too!
We even saw the muttons and utt!
OhMyGod Utt is soo hawt!

Gone and headed to Clementi to have dinner at subway.
Healthy lifestyle, healthy dinner :p
Had a good laugh there as Rafael was making those funny actions and such. (as usual)

So awesome righttt
Met Zhaochin along the way(:

Lucky Donut





Seriously had a good laugh of it! OMGG



Saw Alawiyyah coincidently yesterday on my way home.
She was telling me how's life without school and somehow, she wished she would be back to school again.
Well, school's fun with all your friends and all but stress is seriously smth that can be a total bitch.

I would go out like everydaaaay after O's mann!
Like what darly chui said, its best to party everyday after O's so that when your results are out and its bad, you did enjoy before that. wooohoo =D

Today's lessons were funny. Not literally.
Especially history. Madam wong constantly laughs to herself everytime she tries to make a 'joke'.
And then she wont give us extra lessons on sats cause she's having chinese dance.
HAHAHA JOKE!

Many teachers have been advising us whether should we continue staying on to pure science or drop to combined science.
I am soo dropping mann. Less stress!
Annnnd, science is soo not my type.

School's fun? oh yes, PARTLY.
My daddy had a sandbag place right in the middle of our house.
How great.



I think the first few days of school were pretty fun!

ALOT of changes have been made to our school and our lessons
ends at 3.30 almost everyday.
WTHHHHH and we had replacement of teachers too.
Sad to say that 3/4 of them are strict and they expects high expections as usual.
Sucks rightt :/
Worst, hmks and tests seems to be doubled and we only had 25min recess on some days.
Oh well, the holiday mood has to be gone! I know rightt.

On the other hand, classes were quite fun cause I love my seating arrangement.
From nat to diana to brenna to mingduo to alicia to kristy and mindy.
omgg how fun can this be mann.
And I'm soo glad we change our chinese teacher!
YES no more horrible sight of that fake uneven saggy boobs!
And dareeen koh got transfered to our class for cheena =D

Though it's been a few days, it seems like a long time being spent in school alr.
Cant wait for march holidays!

And if Mr Y is strict, check out our co-form teacher!
2012 OMG!



Hello 2010!
This is like my second post of the day.
2009 passed so fast.
Made new friends, lost a few great friends to the state that we became strangers.
Much events had happened though some were very dramatic.

Bestest together after school or during recess, had alot of good times with them.
Experience a complicated yet tough road with Sam (thank you) (:
I had alot of fun in my new class especially those times when I sat beside Kristy and she'll ask me to shut up whenever I starts singing.
Funny times =D
And then all of us would be like wthh whenever there's a surprise test (it always happens)
and those times whereby our teachers would constantly reprimand us for whatever reason.
I knoww right. :/

Then there's still Habibah who is always there for me whenever I faced any difficulties (anything but studies :p) and Mingduo and Kevin whom I go out with quite often during the hols.
Met BAAA randomly and spent funny memories with them (:
Had an awesome awesome friend moorthy kumadinho who never fails to cheer alicia and I up.
And lastly, not forgetting darren koh who has always been a great friend since sec 1 =D

There's still the old clique with Rafael, Mary and the old 2d'08 peeps and those ex-thespians who still organised outings and meet-ups.

Good times, old times.
Oh well, sometimes, things are meant to be lost so that greater stuff could occur.

And yes, 2010 is here.
School's starts tmr, awiting for O's. ):
I really hope it would be another great year as what many do says.

New Year Resolution:
EXERCISEEEEEE



I'm back from kawaii land!
Had my phone lagging like some shit and was constantly re-starting by itself for an hour or plus.

Well, the trip's not too bad though we didnt get to watch any sumo-wrestling shows.
Saw a few hara-juku girls on the last day and it was rather normal for most Jap girls to dress up on the streets.
Some Jap guys were cute too and they kinda look like comic characters! HAHA

Sadly, we didnt get to see snow AGAIN! ):
The wind was blasting us to the max though the degree were'nt that low.
Oh well, we could always have another chance next year. :/

Disney Land was the bomb!
Alot of disney characters were parading around and I saw Alice from Wonderland!
Didnt catch Snow White though. My fav character!! HAHA
The rides aint as terror as Universal Studio but the food was niceeee.
Omgg totally makes me feel younger! HAHA

Lastly, shopping was satisfying!
I thought it would have sucks considering those never-endings trips to boring temples!
But it was so great on the last day cause we finally made our way to the five-storeys Forever 21! But yeeah, it was more expensive as usual. :/



She's so cute!
Dora The Explora!
Dadddddy =D