-How's life?
-Not awesome, it sucks today.

I think my mood totally went all down when I received smth.
Something that woke me up from my dreams, that I've always been pretending nothing has ever happened all along.
Putting on a smile as many times as possible though I know how and what you are feeling.
Feeling guilty when you're not with us, in fact most of the time.

I didnt realised, I didnt realised a single shit of what's going on.
Until someone woke me up.
And then before we could have the time to save it,
we may have alr lost it.
And it's just that none of us ever noticed about it.

Or maybe when we did, none ever said a single fuck.
Or try to slove the situation and yet all we do is just acting as if nothing happened.
I should have known but yet I thought you were happy with them as well.
I should have known when you kept all quiet on the bus.
I should have known when we barely exchange any words most of the time.

I know you've tried. She did too.
A mere sorry couldnt be any better to slove the situation now.
I feel you.

Now please come back wont you? :/

To sum up my very last day,



Yes, I'm retarded, dumb and stupid.