It's been exactly a week since I've blogged.
I'm glad speech day's over.
I thought I would be quite nervous yesterday but I felt more excited than usual.
Saw alot of graduated students coming back to school and taking their prizes and such.

Alot of things have been happening these few days actually.
Everyday is like a single piece of shit coming back home, fretting bout the hmk not done.
And yet when I chose to sleep instead, I ended up regretting for my choice.
However, I still feel glad by those laughters in school and time spent with D.

I guess I should be happy for what I have and yet, it didnt work that way yesterday.
I thought I felt horrible when I see him after the speech day ended.
Cause it didnt felt right and all was weird and awkward.
But then I realised that I felt worst knowing that you knew about it.
Knowing how badly I didnt want to go to spices at first and you getting frustrated bout it.

I should have known how you felt at that moment in time and yet, I didnt react much to it.
Somehow, there are those moments where I try not to bother so much bout the past.
And when such moments takes place in me, it felt so hard and horrible.

I know why I'm feeling that way.
Trust me, you wouldnt want to know how I felt it.
I do admit I still care for him.
But even such, I wouldnt want to be affected by it anymore.
Cause the only person that I want to care and love is you.

I'm sorry, D :/

There are times when I'm too sad to speak.
Tongue tied and tired, no clue of what you need to feel like yourself again.
If I could feel you, I would. I'm right there.